still I dug my heels into the earth
with all the strength of my back against the door
as the world pushed from the other side
and my feet made deep furrows
for before my time is gone from this place
and all the stories of my life are told
the greatest one shall be the day
I held back the darkness of the universe
to see her
lift her face to the blessed sun
raise her arms
and on the powerful wings
I had given my blood to build for her
*Today is my Daughter’s birthday. She is 13. I know people usually say that their kids grow up too fast…and to an extent, that is true to me as well. But only a tiny part of my heart wishes against it.
For me, it is an absolute joy to watch her grow and to see what a remarkable person she is becoming. My heart whispers, “go Sarah!!…grow stronger, be smarter, love more, do more, be more!!!”
She is becoming a woman of her own means. She has her own set of rules for this life and she is building herself brick by brick.
She writes, she draws, she paints, she reads, she plays music, she is learning Chinese, she loves animals, She loves video games, she hates math, she loves science, she hates a leader who won’t lead, she is brave and determined and opinionated….
I will protect her as long as I have air in my lungs. And one day the world will break through that door and reach its cold, ugly, depressive hands for her….
and it is my solemn wish…
that it burns the fuck out of itself….
on her fire.